Back tracking a little.... PICC Line!

Flushing the line.

Wow... hard to believe that was almost 3 years ago. In this first picture I am flushing the line before my first "Chemo" drug. Who would have thought you could fight very severe Endometriosis with "Chemo"! I spent about 6 hours every day getting treatment and praying this would help! I called my chemo meds my little Super Hero's!! :) Even though I felt worse from them it was making me stronger so I could keep fighting! Little did I know about 4 weeks later I would have to be rushed to the ER for a blood clot in my arm from the PICC line. 

Smiling through the pain.

My husband was the king of making me laugh through my treatments. He keep my spirits high on days when all I wanted to do was curl up in a ball and sleep forever. He was being so silly behind the camera to bring out a smile! Which was really easy to do because I love how funny he is! He always used to say before you start your first chemo medication I'm going to get you laughing. It never failed him or my puppy Charlie would be able to keep my spirits up!! They helped make this entire thing bearable! That's one of the reasons why I love them so much!! 

First chemo dose of the day!

In between pictures David would help me with my PIC Line. He did such an amazing job! On the days when I didn't feel well enough he did everything for me! These pictures were all taken on a good day! I wanted to take them to be able to look back and remember how far I had come. I didn't want to block out or forget everything I went through that made me stronger. These were also taken to help remind me that things could always be worse. 

Guess the look on my face says it all!! It was already starting to make me feel bad which was okay. I kept reminding myself that no matter how bad this made me feel I was still here. I was still fighting. No matter what that is amazing. I felt blessed just to have options. Loved ones of mine didn't even have that. So for me I would push through everything to get better. Did I like having to do this no way! Did I understand why my body wasn't responding to other treatment not really.  I couldn't fully wrap my head around it. Then I remembered my husband, family, friends everybody I cared about. I realized that I didn't have to be able to understand the reason behind why this was happening I just had to tackle it head on and fight hard!!!